Does anyone else sit in traffic and wonder how many of the cars around them carry people who are suffering from cancer, who just lost someone they love, how many people just found out their child is very sick?
I am always looking around wondering how many of us are going through something painful. It's always a thought and I hate to think that I radiate towards it. I'm not a negative person, but I like to think I am just realistic. Life happens and it's not always good. Why not open up and share with one another?
Which may be why it's not unlike me to end up hugging a cashier. Somehow, conversation starts and I am hearing the person's life story. Not because they are oversharers, but because I WANT to hear it. And I think they can feel that from me. In the last month alone, no kidding, I've hugged the same Target cashier twice and a 22 yr old girl who works at the nearby pizza/kids party place who really needs to stand up for herself more, and who should try harder to rebuild a relationship with her father. The 22 yr old said at one point as she and I were watching my kids ride the little train again and again, "This is crazy that I am even telling you all of this!" (I hear that quite often, actually) For me, I don't think it's crazy, I think it's just great. Being able to connect with someone feels good for both of us. I feel that I've been through enough at this point in my own life that it would just be a shame and a waste not to help someone else feel less lonely or alone.
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” -Maryanne Williamson
I just feel so very sorry for people who have built such walls around them. I don't know what feeling could be worse than feeling alone. Pain is pain. I just wish it was easier for people to open up no matter the problem and start to heal. To let go of the fear that they carry inside. Fear has kept my light dimmed for a long time and how has that helped me, my children? I wasn't afraid of anyone, but myself. To be insecure about so many things has not helped in my life one bit. Once I was able to start letting my little light flicker and shine, I started becoming the Eileen that God intended. He doesn't make mistakes so therefore you shouldn't deny your light. There are just so many people around us that need to feel that love. Listen, people, I am certainly not claiming to be saving the world here, but I am doing my part by hugging one cashier at a time. Now, do yours! I got all the Targets covered.